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The Move In.

In my previous post I talked about "5 Things They Don't Tell You About Moving In Together." I wanted to take a step further in today's post to tell you a more detailed account of things I did and have noticed about the days following the move in with my ex (almost) husband.

When we were dating and before we got married my ex (almost) husband was all about getting married after we graduated college and started a career. He was in school to become a physical therapist and it would have taken more than 5 years to complete all the schooling, etc. that he needed to start a career.

... then less than 6 months later we found out that I was pregnant with my now 3 year old... and he proposed. THIS was a red flag for my parents... why I did not listen? I don't know.

I honestly don't even remember them saying anything about it.

Other before we were married things I knew but never addressed... I knew he was a cheater. I found videos, images, text messages, etc. on his p…

I'm a 'Hypocrite'...


I had a meltdown.

Actually I have meltdowns all of the time.

Anxiety. Worry. Anger. it all kicks in and hits me in the butt...

And then I go against everything I (want) to believe and everything that I preach here.



"Your beliefs don't make you a better person, your behavior does..."- unknown

This is the quote I shared on social media to tell everyone that I was doing this post. The quote I actually came across when I decided to do this post will come later. First there are several things you should know about me...

  1.  I am a real person.

  2.  I do have faults and I do fail.

  3.  As I preach I push myself to grow.

  4.  This is my outlet to better myself and to help me be more positive.

  5.  ...I am an open book. Which hopefully you realize by now. ...

That being said I did and I do often (I am working on it) become overwhelmed and get angry and upset and shutdown. It is worse with financial issues and not having money needed to take care of bills. I am the type of person that doesn't like to owe anyone and I don't like to be late on anything.

and right now... things are not adding up for us.

It's making me CRAZY! But if I can focus on "everything happens for a reason" and "God has a plan" then we will make it through this season.

So please don't resent me for being this person:

"Every 60 seconds there is a b**** posting a positive message that she doesn't live by." - unknown

This was me being honest with you. No there are moments where I don't live by any of it, but it is what I want to live by.

I am encouraging myself, and hopefully I am encouraging you.

See you soon!

-Brittani

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